In My Shoes

"In My Shoes" 

Is

 On My Heart

So "In My Shoes" is on my heart...
the matter of my blog has been weighing heavy on my mind and been in my prayers a LOT lately.

I question many things:
I struggle with consistancy... Should I keep writing... Is it helping anyone... am I a good enough writer... etc...

Just being honest here - I've been dealing with so many unknowns and insecurities and I've been taking them to the Lord.
*This is no means meant to be a pity party or an attention getter in any way, I'm just sharing my heart with you.

I'm being transparent. 

I'm being honest. 

So, I'm not the type of writer that just blabs my thoughts and presses "publish". I tend to mull over it  for hours or even days and weeks - correcting each tiny mistake, analyzing, and perfecting every angle. But for this I decided to just chat and "throw" my thoughts down : ) haha!  And I will force myself to just press "Publish" when I'm done typing this : ) haha

I started my blog to help others, to encourage others in The Lord, as I, myself was going through life's struggles and learning how God loves us and wants us to approach trials. I love to write and so
I thought it would be a good way for me to release my emotions, but also minister to others.

BUT...
I've struggled with the techy aspect,
I think... "others can write better"
I feel like I can't be consistent many times because of my health or our spontaneous lifestyle
I start to feel insecure & vulnerable to share my true feelings, so I delay posting
I tend to write emotionally, so I have to be in the "right" mood to post...
So, as a whole, the blog has just NOT been easy for me! :(

As I have pondered and prayed, God has graciously helped me learn 4 things about myself:

1. I need to keep doing this blog and not cancel it!!!
God wants me to continue and I truly believe Satan has fought my blog cause he doesn't want me to be a blessing to anyone. SO I will continue and will be careful to give GOD the glory for any good that comes from it.

2. I'm an emotional writer!!!
I can't just pop out a nice article on a weekly bases like clockwork. This blog is based on my heart, my emotions, and what God lays on my heart. I've always tried to NOT do things based on emotions, but for my blog I've realized that's how I tend to write and God told me that's OK.

3. Many times my thoughts come at night!!!!
My ideas tend to come to fruition at night. Lucky me : ) haha.  Sometimes I put it off cause I don't want to get up, but then I lose it, so I've learned for me that I NEED to write when I feel inspired NO MATTER WHAT TIME OF DAY IT IS.

4. I'm NOT like everyone else!!!!!
Others may have cuter blogs, or update more, or be better writers, or understand the techy side maintaining blogs, BUT  I have to be WHO God has created me to be. I don't have to be the best, i just have to do MY best for Jesus. I just need to be me and...

by just being me I so strongly desire that I can bless you.

FRIENDS, Many of you have been such sweet supporters and encouragers of my blog and also to me personally. THANK YOU from the bottom of my heart! 

May we continue to love and encourage each other in the LORD. He has done great things for us...may we continue to serve Him and love him with our whole hearts. 

Have a great day, 

embrace today,

be thankful, 

and...

BE WHO GOD WANTS YOU TO BE!!!

Love 

DeAna

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