In My Shoes

I  KNEW...

Thanksgiving is Thursday and I wasn't going to post a thanksgiving post, but I sat down to rest a few minutes ago and my mind wandered to my recent scare with "maybe" having cancer; I just began to weep and I decided I SHOULD write something about this special holiday of giving thanks.  I write thru tears, as I replay the past three months and what it was like to be in my shoes. . .waiting 2 months for results, the long days, the hours listening to scripture,  the scary nights laying there wandering if  I did have cancer, wondering if I'd lose my hair,  the nightmares that I was in chemo,  the dread of  my next appointment, the fear of surgery, cherishing my husband more than ever, seeing life differently, etc...

"If" it was cancer...

I KNEW God would take care of me and every time a fearful thought crossed my mind I tried so hard to claim His wonderful promises in His word and try to rejoice in my suffering and thank God.

I KNEW I was suppose to thank God for EVERYTHING  and thus began my journey of truly understanding what that actually means.

I KNEW I would be ok. I was just worried about how everyone else would react, but prayed I could be a strong example of Gods grace.

I KNEW God would take whatever the outcome and use it for His glory.

I KNEW I would draw closer to God in my trial, and I did. I learned, in a deep way, about His love, how to truly trust Him, and the meaning of having JOY in ALL things.

I KNEW I was saved and wondered what it would be like to meet Jesus face to face...I wondered what Heaven was like.

I KNEW I would need my husband and my family more than ever. I realized the deep gratefulness I had towards God for giving me such a wonderful family.

I KNEW I would need prayer and I was truly overwhelmed and so humbled by the hundreds of people all over the world that were talking with The Lord on my behalf...Wow!!!

I KNEW if it wasn't cancer we would rejoice and be so happy, AND  OH the tears that fell the day we got a good diagnosis!!!!! No cancer. Praise The Lord!!!! I can't express the amazing relief!!!

But, you know what?
The scare of cancer - that "if"...
THAT is what I'm thankful for!!!!!

I realized I get to be thankful 

for something this year 

I've never been thankful for before...

I wouldn't trade it for the world. Maybe you think I'm crazy for being thankful that I was told I might have cancer, but it gave me a new perspective on life. It taught me SOOO much!!! I learned more about God than I ever have.

Being thankful has a whole different meaning this year!!!!!!

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HAPPY THANKSGIVING TO YOU ALL 

*These pictures are from a few years ago on Thanksgiving - I just love them : )

~  Be thankful unto Him and bless His name, for the Lord is good!!!  ~

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